Life over the past month has really thrown my family for a loop, and I am hoping by writing about it, I can start to make sense of everything or just digest it a little better. A few weeks ago while in pilates, I got one of those phone calls. You know the ones where the world just stops spinning and everything around you seems to float in space. My mom and sister were hit by a car walking to dinner for my mom’s birthday. Everyone is okay, and all injuries will heal with time, but it is in these moments that you see just how fragile your family is.
I know one day my parents will be gone from this earth, and that I will have to share my memories of them with Chicken to keep them alive for her. I am just not ready for that. I probably will never be. I am not sure how to even prepare for such a thing. Which brings me to another scary thing my family is experiencing. My sister-in-law’s father was diagnosed with stage 4 colon cancer last Easter and over the Thanksgiving holiday, we found out the cancer has spread to his lungs. Why is it we never see these things coming? All my life, I have been so fortunate to be blessed with a healthy and fit family, but the world works in strange ways and I never know how to handle these things. I’m not sure I ever will.
My sister-in-law and her family are going through so much right now, and I want to do whatever I can for them, but I have no idea where to begin. I don’t think straight up asking her is the right thing, so I am figuratively opening the door and waiting for her to come to me. I am constantly doubting this strategy and looking for other ways to help.
I have had a lot to celebrate in my personal life this last month, particularly with my running and work, but with everything going on I feel I need to step back and be grateful for my health and my family’s health. I have had a hard time getting into the Christmas Spirit this year with all the stress and sadness my loved ones are experiencing. With that, I am trying to change my attitude towards this time of year. Instead of focusing on the commercial side of things which always seems to take over, I want to turn my focus on family. I want to be able to show everyone the love and support they need while also showing them how much they mean to me. I want to celebrate the beautiful family we are blessed to have!
How do y’all celebrate family over the holidays? I want to start meaningful traditions with Chicken that we can share in the years to come. If you have any traditions that you and your family share together please tell me about them. I would love to hear about your traditions. Maybe they are something we could do too.